Thank you so very much for reading and for this wonderful reply. I truly understand what a struggle this can be. I've been fighting my way through this since the oldest two started leaving home in 2013. We had all four leave home and one came back recently for a short time. While it has gotten easier it is still a fight to build my own life, but as I do I find juggling them gets easier. I wish you the best. There is a great life waiting out there for you. I wish you well in finding the things that are your own.