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I get scared when I don’t hear from people. I get worried when people are quiet and living their lives. I worry they are upset with me or that I have done something wrong. It’s a problem that stems from childhood. Growing up without communication or anyone teaching me anything I learned to become self-critical. It was the only way to get feedback. I had a sub conscious understanding I should have been taught something and when that didn’t happen I started to teach myself.
Childhood was the first constraint and a pretty big one for my psyche and spirit. Childhood provides all of us with first constraints. When we aren’t given things we need, or live in dysfunction, we are given a set of problems that keep our life from operating smoothly. Growing up with problems we learn to integrate them into our lives and begin not to see them as problems, but normal ways of living. If we are lucky something will happen later in life to help us understand that what became a part of us is something that isn’t supposed to be there.
I woke up today and started running through my mind the things that were wrong. I felt bad for over sharing yesterday and tried to remember if I had a legitimate reason to be mad at my husband. I tried to remember if I still needed to…
